The word of God teaches us in Matthew chapter 13 a Parable of a farmer that sowed. This reveals to us that the farmer goes out and plants seeds. But some seeds fall on a pathway and the birds come and eat it. That happens in our lives a lot of times. Perhaps it may happen to us when we go to church and we hear the word of God, but our hearts aren’t receptive to it. So we go back to our daily lives without making a change. This chapter also talks about how some seeds fell along a path where there are rocks. They grew fast, but since they weren’t rooted in good ground they dried up fast. I relate that with our lives when we hear the word and we accept it, but there’s no change. We no longer attend church except every other day or Sunday. We no longer read the word. So within a matter of time our spiritual life begins to decrease and dry up. But the most beautiful part of this scripture is that part of the seeds fall on good ground and it bears good fruit. For 100 to 60 to 30 fold as when we accept the word into our hearts and we allow the Holy Spirit to work in us and do as he pleases with us. That’s when we start to bear fruit. We don’t allow our problems or our situations to bring us down. But as a matter of fact, they make us stronger; by reading the word & keeping ourselves in consistent prayer. We also have to seek God, because if we are with him there’s no “bird” that can come and take away that good seed that has been planted within us.
This past year as an intern has been intense. It really is like a roller coaster. You will have days of feeling really great and then you felt like everything is an effort and a fight to get through. My emotions have been stretched in every way and I think I have grown in every area. My thinking is different in response to some things. I know whatever comes Jesus is going to prepare the way and make the crooked paths straight, as He always does. I still don’t understand some things, but I look at it as King Saul and David opportunities. Pastor David is a great role model and mentor. He is a great asset to The River and I am glad to have served under him. I wanted more boldness when I started school and I feel like that was accomplished. After losing my job in 2008 when they moved the position to another city, and my husband was no longer going to church, I started feeling inferior to everyone even though I had been in leadership positions in ministry at my other church and another ministry. I tend to get too busy and am trying to not be available for everything that comes along, but it is hard when you are constantly being asked. I plan to spend more time with my husband because we haven’t seen much of each other in the past 3 years and he has been working very hard to support us. God has been so faithful in enabling him and helping us get through. I will be able to hopefully have an income to give him a break from working too much. I am so thankful for the opportunity to come to the River Bible Institute.
This is the day the lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it. This year has been a good year. The lord has been showing me every day I can trust him with my life. Doing this internship is a big step of faith. I ran into a situation where I had to choose either to stay at my job or do internship. I had been praying and fasting about this. Finally, I had to make a decision whether to stay or leave. Well, I left my job to pursue the call of God on my life. I have no regrets because I know my father will take care of me. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills; he owns everything. Already the first week of school, I experienced the “Pentecostal hand shake”. The lord is so good he has gotten me through two years of Bible school. I know he’s going to get me through the last one if I trust him and continue to follow the leadings of the Holy Spirit. It is certainly an adventure to be lead by the spirit. Just by experience of follow the Holy Ghost for four years he has changed my life, burnt out things that I never thought could be burnt. God is faithful to his word and if he’s leading you to do something step out in faith, even when it looks crazy in the natural. Don’t allow anyone to talk you out of doing what God is telling you to do. God has never failed, and he will never fail. Not in a million years. Amen.
As Pastor Rodney has been preaching on the sowing of the Word, I’ve really started to learn what it means to be receptive to the Word and how to make sure my heart is open so that the Word can actually take root and do something in my life. I definitely learned that just because I’m reading my Bible and taking notes during a service, it doesn’t mean that I’m actually letting it change me or that I’m even receiving it. It’s easy to listen to a message or read something from the Word, but if I’m not even willing to make changes and let God do a work in that area, then it’s not even doing anything in my life. During Pastor’s recent messages, God has opened my eyes to areas of my life in which I need to start receiving the Word and letting it change me.
Since I’ve started allowing the Word to take root and do what it needs to do, I’ve seen areas of my life changing and I’ve begun to see fruit in many different areas. One of the biggest areas I’ve seen growth in is the area of faith. Recently I’ve really begun reading more in the Word about faith and it’s definitely taken root and I’m seeing my faith increasing and getting stronger day by day. I’ve learned that if I keep my heart right before God and accept the Word, I will see growth and fruit, however if my heart is not right or receptive, nothing will change and I will still be at the same level.
After watching the Great Awaking last year, my mom heard about the scholarship give away
to come to RBI in August 2011-2012. I prayed and asked the Lord about it and I heard his voice saying I want you to go RBI. I called the prayer line for an application. After a few weeks, on July 22, 2001, I got a message on my cell; I just wanted to congratulate you on your scholarship.
God has been so good! I had no ride to get back and forth to school. I had been praying and trusting him and going to prayer on Tuesdays. On July 26, 2011 when we finished praying, my case manager said that she would take me three days a week starting August 22. My mom and she agreed. Several weeks went by. On September 26, God provided a stable ride to get to school.
Through the Great Awaking I learned how to come back to my first love and let him change my heart, grow in my faith and discover the purpose why God has me on earth. He brought me from not knowing my purpose to showing what my purpose is. Now he is using me in so many ways I could never imagine.
Since being at the River I have relearned things I once knew but in a new way. Three weeks ago after asking the Lord what to give in the offering, Pastor Rodney announced about writing down ten things we needed to pray about, I asked the Lord if I should attend the next night and he said “I have your whole life in my hands do not worry about anything”. Two weeks later I received a tax form from my student loan saying it had been written off. Then I did my taxes and I did not owe anything in taxes. I am getting back to where I once was years ago, before life happened. I have learned a lot of things I have not heard anyplace else.
When I have my heart opened, I feel I hear the Lord better and feel his presence more than when I don’t.
Sometimes the Lord will touch me in spite of the fact I am not open to the message that is being preached. When I come into the presence of God, I never know what to expect. A message can make me laugh when I want to cry, cry when I want to laugh or make me just sit motionless.
Each meeting is different, just like each message is different Sometimes good sometimes not so good, but each time is unique, and special in its own way. I may come and it may or may not be my night whether or not it is my night for a miracle of healing it is always my time with God.
What is God doing in my life? That truly is a loaded question. This has been a life-changing conference. We are not to conform to the world’s system but to God’s system. Pastor Corey spoke about the money changers that Jesus was angry toward in the temple. Reading over these scriptures brought a righteous anger in me as I did not know about the evilness of this. The religious leaders loved money and wanted to do anything to protect it, as now in the present time. God is doing so much to increase my faith. He has taught me not to rely on my paycheck but on Him as my source. I am grateful for my internship in the Pastoral and Outreach department. This has been an unforgettable experience and I am just getting started.
He’s been talking about how the system is a system that is made to create debt and that America will never get out of debt because of the system. And it’s not like this system was started when America was first founded but it has been in place since the time of Jesus and how the religious leaders of those days dealt with money and when Jesus started going into the temple calling those religious leaders being thieves and whipping them. And how the Bible has a blueprint of how we as believers can control this situation, because even if America could buy out our debt. The banking system will not allow it, so what if the body of Christ would buy America’s debt and change to tides. So this week I’ve been learning or should I say wool over my eyes has been pulled. We really need to help others in America see the truth of what the corrupt system has done to all of us in America or out of America.
I awake each day with the word that I have hidden in my heart on my lips, coming out of my mouth. When I get to school each day, I’m ready to receive the seed that’s sown. My heart is ready to add seed to the soil to grow, there‘s a hunger for God’s word. I make sure that NO TV will distract me, because I have to study, nor is there time to gossip on the telephone, I don’t take unnecessary phone calls to get my focus off the word. I am careful to keep my mind on first things; first the word Pastor Rodney has been teaching us has been so effective in my life because I was hungry before I got accepted as a student. I came wanting more, to be more effective in witnessing for the LORD. This word has taken root in my heart and produced a greater Holy Boldness in me to go after souls, to build up Gods Kingdom; I speak forth the word in any place I go.
For about two or three days we decide to just believe God for jobs. The very next day we went out job hunting, and I kid you not the next day we receive five phone calls. All of them from jobs we had gone out and applied to but the interesting thing is the phone calls came one after another. God is so good because before we had the place to live God would bless us every day financially and we would give it right back in our tithe and offerings out of obedience. People would see us at the gas station and Lord would lay it upon their heart to either fill our gas tank or give us money. One time we were at the gas station and a couple from the church saw us and came to me saying, we want to fill your tank and give you all 100 dollars Praise God.